Lyrics

Monster in Me

(V1)
Is this Hell? feels like is Hell.
Seems my whole damn life,
I've been expected to fail.
Bruised and beaten, abused, used, mistreated,
to few have seen this monster,
that they created.
And I hope you never will.
Locked my emotions deep inside,
swallowed the key with all the pills.
The doctors think I'm sick,
like I've forgotten how to feel,
like I'm some psychopathic monster, unempathetic to what's real.
But that's not true, it can't be true.
The only reason I had to dream
was to escape the truth.
Years of violance, codes of silance,
tried to hide the abuse.
You pushed me close to the edge,
now im about to break loose.
But you cant see me, a man behind the mask
Hidden behind these mental scars from a malevolent past
This life is so beautiful, that shit never last
Tell me how much longer all this pain last.

(C)
Seems I've fallen to madness
Feels I'll never, ever be the same again
There's a darkness inside of me,
That you cant see
I wonder if I'll ever be free,
From this monster in me.

(V2)
You were my light in the darkness
So lovely and kind,
Captivated by your presence
you took over my mind
You taught me to laugh
So I taught you to cry
All I wanted was to have you by my side
I gave you everything,
My misery, my pain
I let you see the darkest corners
Shit that drifts though my brain
You were a rock I could lean on
To help keep me sain,
I guess you never saw the monster I became.
Well i tried to process all these new emotions
That i never even felt for myself
You were hitting the club,
planning your future without me
Trying to find yourself someone else.
I tried to walk away like i could
Even let that happen,
Now im standing in this puddle of blood
Its so hard to invision
My life without you
The price i pay for falling in love.


feel so alone
What can i do
My last regret
Was loosing you
But in my heart
I know youll stay
Gave you my all
And threw it away.